So That’s New
I’m not a fan of learning new things. (Nor am I fan of admitting that.) But, my-oh-my, am I in a season brimming with new-ness. See, I am independently publishing my first novel, Penumbra, on December 21st. Which basically means my friend Joy and I are starting a small press as our vehicle into the world of publishing. And there is so much I have to learn about ALL of this.
I remember so well the day I realized my disdain for the new. I was trying to get (read: manipulate) my husband into doing something I didn’t want to do. He started asking a few questions about my hesitancy, and bam, I had a bit of an ah-ha moment with God. I hate feeling incompetent. The sensation of feeling “less than” is akin to physical pain. So, in a way, learning equaled pain. Isn’t that just delightful?
Thankfully, God is a gentle, kind, and persistent teacher. He is walking alongside me as I learn this indie publishing thaing. I’m creating websites, designing book covers, figuring out contract stuff, all that. I’m feeling woefully imperfect and surprise, surprise, I’m still breathing. It is straight-up miraculous. I haven’t self-combusted or anything.
Beth Moore speaks to this in an amazing article for new writers that I highly recommend reading. She says,“Perfectionism will snuff the flame. Period. Give it up.” Yes, yes, yes!!!
I haven’t quite come to the place where I embrace learning new things, but I don’t shut down at the prospect now. And I’m thankful for that.
What about you, lovely readers? How you do feel about learning the new? How does this perspective affect your art?