Lack and Plenty
Aren’t these words beautiful? They feel like a prayer, like a reminder, a plea even. I need to hear these words. They tell me about a shepherd whose very personhood means I lack nothing. Which is crazy. And hard to grasp. And yet really, really relieving.
I often feel like I’m lacking. Finances, experience, knowledge, security. In so many ways, I feel like I don’t have “enough.” And I’m so sick of it, honestly. Because this mindset inevitably leads to fear.
God tells me over and over again not to be afraid. I think He says it so much because He gets my fear. He understands that it’s hard. But He’s showing me that He’s a shepherd like no other. Come, he says. I have everything you need, and it’s all yours. Let me show you green meadows and streams that refresh and don’t overpower. This is all around you, child. Even now. Even though you are new at this kind of seeing.
As artists, we try to see things well in order to translate them via our creations. We hope to capture something of what might otherwise remain unseen. In this way, our art is an act of giving. We pour ourselves out. And there’s a fear that we might, one day, have nothing left to pour.
But this is where God amazes.
We are wells that won’t run dry, because God never does. And because he’s supernaturally fond of us, He’ll give us what we need when we ask him.
I’m brainstorming sequel ideas for Penumbra, and the doubts have crept in. I don’t know enough, have enough… I’m not enough. But then I go to the poem that is so much more than a poem– “The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.” This is true. This is reality.
Do you ever feel lacking as an artist? Do you worry about not having enough? How do you move forward?