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thrum, thrumming heart

IMG_0404The steady thrum of my heart has suddenly gained greater importance. It does more than just keeping my toes warm and my brain humming. It’s a reminder that my spiritual heart (the core of my soul) is vitally important in my ability to connect to God, live out my calling, and show others the way to great freedom and the Freedom Giver.

Understand, I am not defining ‘heart’ as the emotional roller coaster that culture portrays it to be. I’m using the word heart to define the core of who I am. “My heart is me. The real me. Your heart is you. The deepest, truest you. That is why the heart is central, for what shall we do if we dismiss our self?” John Eldridge, Waking the Dead.

I’ve noticed the more in touch I am with my core, the more I come to know God for who He truly is, and the emotions that used to rule me, are now more like indicators of where I need God to come in and shed light.

I’ve been fighting to get back in touch with my heart. It’s there where God and I do the most work, where I feel most alive, and paradoxically most safe. But it’s also where I hold the deepest hurts and where I am fighting the darkest lies.

“It is simply diabolical, despicable, downright evil that the heart should be so misunderstood, maligned, feared, and dismissed. But there is our clue again. The war we are in would explain so great a loss. This is the last thing the Enemy wants you to know. His plan from the beginning was to assault the heart, just as the Wicked Witch did to the Tin Woodman. Make them so busy, they ignore the heart. Wound them so deeply, they don’t want a heart. Twist their theology, so they despise the heart. Take away their courage. Destroy their creativity. Make intimacy with God impossible for them.”

“Of course your heart would be the object of a great and fierce battle. It is your most precious possession. Without your heart you cannot have God. Without your heart you cannot have love. Without your heart you cannot have faith. Without your heart you cannot find the work that you were meant to do. In other words, without your heart you cannot have life.” John Eldridge, Waking the Dead.

Do you shy away from the word heart? Does it sound hokey, simple, silly, too intimate, weak, scary? I’ve felt that way for a long time. Still do more times than not.

I’d love to hear your thoughts… do you try to silence your heart, why? Are you trying to get in touch with your heart, why?

My challenge to you and myself—investigate the role God designed the heart to play in  life. I may reread Waking the Dead again. But I also believe, the simple pursuit of God, however He decides to take us (through books, counseling, friends, ect), will inevitably lead to an awakening of the heart.


taming your white, fluffy dogs

heatherAs a product of living a boundary-less, codependent life for so long, I have found I have some important lifestyle changes to make and oddly enough one of those changes became very apparent in the form of my dogs.  It is time for me to learn how to be their leader.  To learn how to love them while setting healthy limits and giving them what they need and want to truly be happy.  This is healthy for them.  And has surprisingly been incredibly eye opening and healthy for me.

I did not forget that this blog is about art and God…

I’ve wanted boundaries for a long time.  I admired people with boundaries and self-discipline.  They were more productive and happy.  But me and my artist nature seemed to a little to free spirited for this approach.  It wasn’t until literally about 2 weeks ago that I realized exercising boundaries/self-discipline with my art would actually make me more productive and happy.

Thing is, reading about setting boundaries/self-discipline or even watching someone exercise good boundaries/self-discipline does not mean that I will understand or catch on.  It’s not until I begin my own fumbling attempts that I will truly begin to start wrapping my head and heart around what it means to live a self-disciplined/healthy boundary life.

So God, in his infinite wisdom (and sense of humor) decided to use my dogs as a major tool for me to practice with.  It is soooo hard to enforce healthy boundaries with little white fluffy dogs with big brown eyes!  But God and the Dog Whisperer are helping me.  Boundaries and discipline used to sound harsh, boring, painful, and dull to me.  Now, as I practice them, I’m finding that I am actually more free, happy, fulfilled and productive.  Who knew!  I am now making more time for my writing than ever before!

How do the words boundary or discipline make you feel?  Is there an area in your personal or artistic life that is out of control?  Remember your personal and artistic life is closely dependent on each other.  For me, this boundary thing was a last resort.  I started it as an experiment and now I am becoming more determined with each step.  In what area of your life do you need to tame your white, fluffy dogs?

Corbin and Morri

Corbin and Morri

Sources I recommend for boundary/self-discipline help:  Boundaries by Cloud/Townsend, The Dog Whisperer, Cesar Milan (book or videos), Codependent No More by Melody Beattie

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